#i had a little cry and i feel better
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candyunicornsateme · 3 months ago
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I've always had one big fan since the beginning. Years ago I told my dad I had like 400 followers or something and he earnestly said "wow all those people talk to you?". Hahaha no dad, actually never, but you're great for that. Truly no one can replace you.
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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 26 days ago
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Learning to celebrate the little wins!
#fersona#While I don't have the capacity to do Hourly Comics Day#I did journal my day hour-by-hour and the sheer difference in my self-care and routines is *staggering*.#Honestly both Feb 1 2024 and 2025 were rough days...but this year I had a far better outlook on it all.#The funny part is that when I drew this a few days ago I actually *was* celebrating not crying.#Might have still cried on Feb 1st. A meagre 4 times. But I also had lot of good moments!#January is a very hard month for me and frankly I've been in a fugue state for most of it.#Drawing helped me pull through these last 2 years but this year I've been finding myself so upset at how I can't seem to focus anymore.#So updates and posts have been slow. I'm just slow. I'm tired and burnt out from work and grieving.#But you know what? The days I do manage to post; I'm never shamed for how long it took. You're all just as excited and kind.#I'm coming home and eating better and sleeping more and spending time with loved ones.#This is all to say; you can be a lot happier when you realize that life can be taken a little slower.#I'm more grateful that words can possibly convey.#If you related to the mindset of constantly feeling like you've 'failed' the day; please know you have done more than you realize.#I'm struggling with it everyday! I'm in the trenches with you!#Life is too short and painful to not celebrate what you *do* accomplish! It's hard work but it is worth it!#Bit by bit...we will learn to live. *Really* live. And enjoy it!
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canisalbus · 1 year ago
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Look, I know it's supposed to end badly. But I need to admit that in my head, they declared a mutual "fuck this shit" to the world and society. Packed all the stuff they could one late night and escaped to a remote open plain in the middle of some thick woods where they spent the rest of their lives healing and living freely in nature.
I've been having a lot of intense feelings about them as well. The tragical elements are so baked in to their story and setting, it's hard to imagine a happy ending for them. But every now and then I find myself thinking of scenarios and AUs where they both live and grow old together. For coping purposes, I suppose.
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dailycupofcreativitea · 3 months ago
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The depression hit so hard today I had to take a day off work lol
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insomnia-and-caffeine · 4 months ago
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clinicals are starting again from tomorrow so if I vanish just assume that the terror fully consumed me, mind, body, and spirit. I know I’ll be fine. I’m confident that I won’t fail. I did pretty decently last time. But bro I can’t even find the words to describe the fear in my heart.
Also 80 hours of unpaid work sounds pretty Not Great. To remind myself that all things pass I’ll add to this post over the next two weeks and hopefully look back on it next time pracs roll around and feel some type of hope knowing I survived (🤞)
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thetardisisnotourdivision · 4 months ago
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Hey did I ever tell y'all about the time I dreamed that I had a baby daughter called Ellie that began with my finding out I was pregnant and ended on like her third birthday?
I legitimately woke up thinking "I should go check on Ellie" and then realised she was never real and when I tell you I SOBBED. I've been haunted by an implacable sense of loss ever since. Did I travel to another dimension? Wtf happened because that was insane.
#I'm not even joking when I say it felt REAL#I have this baby doll (it was my mum's when she was a kid and I have it now) that sometimes I just hold and it makes me feel better???#Did I astral project into another life?????#Was it just a really fucking intense fever dream??????#For the record I was like fifteen I have never even done the do let alone had a pregnancy scare#But yeah my little Ellie#And she never fuckin existed#I woke up halfway through planning her birthday party like baking a cake or sm and I was thinking#“I'll give her the little green cardigan I knitted”#Woke up to a silent house and was like “she's never usually quiet this time in the morning”#Then realised what had happened and started CRYING#idk man it's insane#From a psychological point of view it's fascinating but I've tried and tried to analyse the dream and?????#I always come up with something different???? I can't pinpoint the actual cause and effect of the whole thing?????#Madness honestly#And it was just a normal day too nothing weird had happened it wasn't a coma and I wasn't knocked out it was just a Dream#A very very real one#For the record I don't think Ellie had a father#I think it was just an immaculate conception that nobody ever questioned#Might have been IVF now I think about it#That would make more sense#dream#weird dreams#Ig I should add a grief trigger warning???#tw grief#one time i dreamt#Very confused and it's been like two years so wtf yeah that was... Intense#The most dream of all time#Maybe I'm just fucking insane lol but yeah
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ninkaku · 2 months ago
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referring to people with mental illnesses as like “healed” in later life is not something i fw because it just sounds like thinly veiled ableism and a very big disconnect to understanding how people with mental illnesses function and can function later in life even if they have a difficulty doing so in earlier stages of life (:
#saw this bcs someone made art of “healed dazai” where he’s not in his bandages which. firstly no ? and secondly no ?#“healed” girl he’s not damaged#i also see people saying this abt if like. dazai had kids#and i’ve been stuck on the thought of dazai being a father for a whileeee bcs no 1 girl dad#he’s alr letting kyouka deck him out in funky clips and headbands with pom poms on#like that man was born for tea parties and tiaras but a mentally ill person doesn’t have to be “healed” to have children#the way that i see it is through the source content we see he has such a huge disconnect with what he thinks vs how he feels#and later in life he comes to have a better understanding of that#but that doesn’t mean he’s “healed” and anyone who talks about mental illness like it can be cured needs to dieeee#but. yeah tldr dazai would have one daughter and then want five more#he’d be so good w imaginary games like wym mr bear wont share his crackers with u? jail for mr bear immediately. life without the possibly#of parole for mr bear!!!! justice for his little girl!!!#man.#dazai and fatherhood is something that can be so personal#sobbing thinking about it. man#MAN!!!!!!!!#there’s still a spiral to be had about having kids and the way that dazai views himself#and how he views life. but like i can’t think abt it it will make me cry but#he’s good w kids. he would be good w his own if only not to introduce them to the same suffering and confusion he had#like the thought of passing on his genes? terrifying#sage enough. ENOUGHHHH anyway.
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zuzu-romeave · 1 month ago
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man if we get canon alloromantic brad im gona. lose my mind
#i am constantly fighting the urge to say im gona kms cuz ik its not healthy to say#but good god if we get alloromantic brad im gona cry#maybe not Actually but like i feel like its pretty rare to see a character show literally Zero interest in romance#and brad and jo both show literally zero interest in romance and so its so easy for me to be like!!!!!! see!!!! they r aro!!!!!#but like. AGHH i wish i had better words but i really dont like when romance is just kinda shoehorned in because like. it ‘has’ to be#ITS JUST!!!!!#LIKE YA KNOW??? they show bo interest in it and i just have a sinking feeling that one or both r gona be confirmed alloro n its like ughhhh#i just feel very strongly about them being aromantic (specifically apothiromantic)#IM RLLY STRUGGLING to not repeat myself a dozen times but its just nice to see characters who dont show romantic interest like at all idk#n i am just a Little worried that they are just gona throw romance into their characters when it rlly doesnt need to be there#and like idk maybe my reading of them is really off base but like i just feel like romance Doesnt fit with them#like i genuinely cant see them caring about it at all#mythic quest#brad bakshi#vent#? yeah i think this is venty enough to warrant that#jo mythic quest#< this is less abt jo cuz there hasnt been any like talk of jo being in a romantic relationship but this still applies to her#morty talks woah#aromantic#i have a lot of energy rn and i just want to Talk and ive been thinking abt this for like the last few days so#its really not That Big a deal but it is to me even if its silly
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endead-art · 2 months ago
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The Ithaca Saga (Epic the Musical) was so good
I already listened to the songs prior to the stream, but man
That truly was a journessy, an epic one at that
Thank you Mr. Jalapeño
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ghosts-of-love · 3 months ago
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i'm so tired
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disposal-blueeee · 1 year ago
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VARGASTOBER - day 2 : johnny c.
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sskk-manifesto · 3 months ago
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#Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#Mmmmmhhh#I had to step away and do something very quick after watching the episode so now I'm afraid I forgot all of it lol#Okay thoughts:#I'm afraid I'll keep saying this every time. Do not. Give me. An amv opening. Don't do that. Postpone your airing date. I don't care#I feel like I wasn't as pissed with it when they did that for s3 but it's probably a case of the s3 opening at least looked somewhat–#better (??) + you can make a mistake once but don't think I will let it slip a second time#Other than that... To be fair this episode was animated fairly well. I think you can really notice a big quality drop after the–#Ranpo-realizing-who-Kamui-is sequence but overall it's more than okay.#The colours of the ship irk me a little but to be fair I never thought colours were b/sd anime strong point...#This episode was sooooooo political in so many ways I could literally talk about it for hours#(don't test me I'm not kidding. Talking about politics in anime for hours is something I've done in the past and will do in the future.)#(Then again I study/think/breathe politics pretty much 24/7 so is that really surprising... )#I need to write an essay on Fukuchi's speech alone. The public speech communication techniques [redacted Italian politics comment].#The way he's welcomed [redacted eu parliament comment]. Unfortunately I don't have time for it but breaking it down very quickly#1. Suggesting to unify defences worldwide is INSANE. No one would ever take it. Probably going to be cynical here but there's one (1) thing#states care about and it's the independence of their own sovereignty (that is: no one has the right to come and tell what must be done–#within one's borders). Eu has been trying to do exactly that (unify defences) for decades to no avail. Nato is on the brink of crumbling–#down. It's just... Such a distant perspective from how the world works right now? Idk.#Which brings me to 2. Even if it's deeply inconsistent with how world politics work the bsd un perspective is still very coherent with–#a latter thesis brought up in the manga that is “countriest tend to merge and come together” which is. Very anti-historical if you ask me–#but idk. Beautiful to imagine I suppose.#What else uhm... I liked the drawings this episode... Even Atsushi was back being pretty at some points... (Generally not really a fan of–#what the style in the later seasons came to be). Also 55 Minutes reference ‼‼‼#I like Fukuchi's character so much......... I love idealist characters... And the inherent loneliness... The longing... The yearning!!!!!!#I love him so. Oh and I LOVED Akutagawa. I thought his entrance wouldn't have impacted me after all this time (and after knowing–#what episode 3 will be lol). And yet it was such an emotional moment!!!! What do you mean Atsushi is scared to be alone and Akutagawa is–#coming for him!!!!!! I'm crying all my tears. And Akutagawa was so cool in the end!!! By heart was beating so fast!!!!!#It's the etheral blurred light...#The way he still manages to come off so cool despite being inherently pathetic is nothing short to miraculous
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theladyinwhite13 · 5 months ago
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guys i like really really love brat does everyone know this about me yet?
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mars-ipan · 4 months ago
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don’t trust your brain after 7pm (winter mode) don’t trust your brain after 7pm (winter mode) don’t trust your brain after 7pm (winter mode)
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ananxiousgenz · 7 months ago
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kinda just having a rot in bed kind of day
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bittersweetblasphemy · 6 months ago
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